Saturday, May 16, 2015


Struggling lately with my depression. Getting all the snuggles and smiles from this kiddo that I can though. I'm swinging from grumpy/angry and irritable to on the verge of tears to nobody likes me everybody hates me guess I'll go eat worms to I'm useless and back around again through the course of the day.   Caffeine has stopped helping as well. 


Friends from high school have a baby in the hospital. She is a month older than Flower Pink. She was born with only half her heart working has had 2 heart surgeries. This 2nd one she has been having trouble being weaned off the meds. Major withdrawals. Then just as they were getting through that she had another set back. Then she now had a stroke and a seizure and my heart is breaking for their family as they have now simply asked that prayers be said for whatever will cause her to suffer the least to be. Doctors are putting her on blood thinners to help prevent another stroke, but that will likely cause bleeding in her intestines and swollen brain. 

Not a trial I'd go through as gracefully as they are. Certainly hugging my own little one more. 

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Baby's Blessing


This past Sunday we blessed(christened) Flower Pink at Mr. Man's parents house.  My parents attended via Skype otherwise it was just Mr. Man's family there for her.  A sister of Mr. Man also had her baby blessed that day, her sweet baby is a month younger than FP.  It was a nice weekend and FP was rather cooperative overall.
 Her blessing gown is a vintage piece I picked up on ebay, my mother made her booties, and I made her bonnet and a blanket that looks like it took more work than it did because of the fancy remnant fabric piece I picked up that has lace and pintucks on it.















Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Usually I return home from my in laws house feeling rejuvenated and ready to try getting life more organized. 

Not this time. Though I think it's more that we need to change my medication or something. 

I just want to cry a lot and never get out of bed. Though I resist both things. Thankfully I at least know when my head and body aren't being realistic.  So instead I'm humming Count Your Blessings, because it seems so fitting. 

Blessings: 
Have a husband who lets me stay at home with the kids and puts up with my poor housekeeping. 
4 beautiful little girls 
Unexpected refund from the hospital which made this week not so tight financially and kept our account from going negative when the gas bill went through.  
Cupboards of food. 
Ava and Jordan avoiding Illnesses the rest of us have had. 
Our washer and dryer 
Cloth diapers so I don't have to worry about running out of diapers and not being able to afford more
A working vacuum 
Hubby's work schedule making it possible for me to take a nap 

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Been here 3 months

Flower Pink was 3 months old yesterday!  This little darling is a giggler, slightly ticklish, and has just started to figure out that peek-a-boo is supposed to be fun.  She loves nursery rhymes especially Humpty Dumpty and Jack and Jill.  Not much of a crier, she does talk in her way to let us know when she is done with something or in need.  If any show is on within her range of sight, she wants to be watching it.  She loves her toys very much and is happy to play with them for quite a long time.
She is a wonderful addition to our family.




Saturday, April 25, 2015

Most often

She wakes up like this. I couldn't pick just one to post on Facebook, so here are a few smiles post nap.