Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Learning to adjust....story of my life.

When we moved here I said 5 years.  3 years was my ideal, but 5 years was my realistic plan, since I knew Mr. Man would take longer to get through school because he had to get up to college level in Math and English. 5 years and then we'd be out and would be adults with a house and I'd get the girls enrolled in one of the numerous local charter schools (or homeschool depending on where we moved).  We'd have a dog and a swingset and perhaps a tree house, fruit trees and a big garden, eventually some chickens...

I've been struggling this year.

This past August we hit 5 years.

There's no end in sight.  I've been working on changing my life plan because nothing will be changing any time soon.
It has been even harder what with having our things outside (slide, sandbox, bikes) being moved around and used by new neighbors, our yard used as a walk way and bike path, our bathroom window opened repeatedly, and last week the trailer park manager and her boyfriend were arrested for selling meth out of the trailer park office/apartment.
Thankfully the bathroom window has been left alone for a month now ever since I caught the person on video and the cops came to look around within half an hour of the person doing it.

Is it cheap to live here?  Yes.  Very affordable thanks to the trailer being owned by my brother who lets us live here rent free.  We pay the lot fee and any repairs the trailer needs.  My parents have spoiled us with a new kitchen floor this year, and they replaced the roof a few years ago.  The extra plus to those is it'll help sell this trailer for my brother if we are ever able to move out.

But I'm still struggling.  You can tell me all the pluses of living here, but it doesn't change that this was never my vision of life.

I finally realized in the last few months since we hit the 5 year mark and Mr. Man is still years from being done with school that we will be here at least another 5 years.  Possibly forever.  So I'm trying hard to reset my mindset.  It's not easy.  But I keep trying and deciding it's too much work and trying again.

So already I'm setting my goals for next year (not that I've met any that I made this year).  Next year I plan to do lots of painting inside. Stalk yard sales and thrift stores for furniture.  I need to cut down on stuff again.  Some more.  Never ending story.  Need to sew to sell stuff and save up for a fence to go around our "yard".  I need to learn to buy enough produce for canning since I won't be able to grow it...

Monday, October 27, 2014


Watching The Neverending Story and folding clothes counts as Family Home Evening right?  

Oh, the girls painted their pumpkins too

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Three (and 3 months)

She loves to dress up.  She randomly dances. Her own lyrics to that Disney song crack me up. 

 Sparkles.  Ruffles, Lace.  She loves pretty girly things. But she also likes to climb and is rather fearless. She's happy to stay home with me while her sisters head outside or to the neighbor's to play.  She loves watching Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood AND Mr. Roger's Neighborhood.  She learns quickly and loves to help. She can be demanding and stubborn and selfish.  She yells and cries to try and get her way.  

 She likes to have mommy or daddy in her sight as she falls asleep.  Cheese is her favorite food.  She doesn't like eating cold things - including ice cream and ice pops. She hates having her hair brushed, but loves the end results of it being styled.  Her favorite color is blue.  And now silver as well.  She loves to say that our car is silver. She likes being read to, but doesn't like books that have pages that take longer than others.  She's a cuddler.

  She loves drawing and writing and painting. She can sing "You are my sunshine", "The ABC song", "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star", some of "I am a Child of God", and parts of "When I grow up, I want to be a mother". She loves chocolate. LOVES chocolate.

She doesn't like crayons to have wrappers and you can tell where she has been due to the trail of tiny paper strips strewn across the house leading to a pile of naked crayons.  She also uses those crayons as people and the wrappers as their clothes.  She can turn anything into a toy to play with, ending her days with her hands dancing on herself or the bed rail and having conversations with them.  

She's a joy and a pest.  And I love spending my mornings with just her.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Really, someday I will use my camera again. But for now, enjoy some funny face phone pictures. 

And a tired Sunshine crying about something I dont remember, but it was about something random and irrational so I took pictures. 

I think it may have been regarding her wanting to go to a store after we picked up Mischief and my pointing out she was not wearing pants...

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

So tomorrow my father is having major surgery to remove tumors from his pituitary gland.....I suppose it's considered invasive rather than major....but I think having your face cut open and skull broken in a certain spot so they can get behind it to be pretty major.  Mischief of course wanted details regarding the surgery while the other two were content with "surgery to remove some tumors".  I described it to her pretty  much as I just described it here, and surprisingly got an "EWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" from her.  Something about the part regarding having your face peeled back......(oh did I not mention that?  it was implied....)

So if you utter a little prayer for him and his surgeons, it'd be appreciated.  Some very minute and careful cutting is going to be taken place, and we'd like him to come out of this with his life, health, and vision....

Thanks.  We rather love Boppa.

Update: 10/2/2014 - 6:30pm - he's out of surgery and is in a room.  Doctors are doing some neurological tests before letting my mom in the room, but it went faster than they had anticipated, and the tumor (they decided to only remove the big jelly bean size one) appears benign and he lost no spinal fluid so they didn't have to do a lumbar drain.  That's all I know so far.